Renewal is about remembering what I came here to do. It’s not always clear in the trenches of change. We must, somehow, get back to our center…our garden into which we can plant new stories that fit us now. If we can remember the joy behind the sadness while we are in the throes, we become resilient and evergreen–like the giant redwoods (Gratitude of Redwoods No. 5).
• Praire born & gone
I was born an artistic child in a blue bubble in my red hometown of Tulsa, Oklahoma. My first career was a registered Landscape Architect with a West coast education, doing water and earthworks in OR, CA, OK, TN, GA & TX. It was satisfying until it changed. So I changed...and moved, as my lineage has done episodically to CA.
• Now What & a new plan
San Francisco began further entrepreneurial explorations but, this time, in the digital landscape creating bleeding edge projects in imagery, digital cartography & mapping...Now What Software...with time layers to see for yourself - when, and where we were. It was "proto-google-ian" (ahem...back in the ancient days before Google and an useful Internet). It was fun for a decade...or so. Then it changed on me again.
• And my new plan stopped working...
The multi-media techie bubble tanked us: personal and corporate bankruptcy, divorce and the death of my brother. (No matter how many times he jumped out of planes, skydiving did not give him wings...)
• Then I became a caregiver...because who else was going to do it?
Eleven years of caregiving just happened and it changed me. But this tragic journey, brought me (eventually) back to something I had lost: my original center. I realized I had been a pretzel of adaptability and...more importantly...fear-based. This is where the Fieldguide came into being. It helps me remember that I stand for love. We all do – all us human knuckleheads...
• And now renewal
All of the above informs my life, my work in hospice, my writing and the various ways I serve people at this edge of renewal. My prayer is this:
May it/I help caregivers and make the planet a more caring place. And so it is. Amen